Kill me so I can cry....

by psychocutter
Feeling: bruised
I hate feeling this way. Nothing seems simple anymore. And no one understands this is the only way. I need to cut to feel alive. I can't live happily ever after without something to take it all away. I can no longer cry and I can't just write a poem and get over it all. I don't know what bothers me so much now. Maybe the pressure just to be liked. I want to numb the pain with cuts and a bit lip. If I could hide my whole body I'd cut it all up and finally cry looking at the pain and the mess I made. I always screw up something. I hate it. I feel so alone and broken. Help please fix me...--
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i really like ur diary. your entrys are very powerful. ((chloe))
[Anonymous]
There's probably nothing anyone here can say to fix you. We would have to really know you to be able to help. Can you identify one real tangible problem in your life, recognise why it is a problem and then think of a method to fix it? AN excercise worth trying out, it would at least give you some feeling of empowerment, if you can do one thing you can do any other thing!
[Anonymous]
i can understand why its surprising because its something most people would avoid talking about but its there in all of us. i cut too. ive been there. its hard to think that it would help to cut if ur not a cutter, hbut people dont understand.
[Anonymous]
Hey... I get how you're feeling. Frustration. Irritation. Aggrivation...
But take it easy. I will be your friend if you want. I am a good person to talk to. I listen, and I want to help. Life can suck, but not if you change it. My name is Sarah, and I feel bad for you cuz I used to feel just like that. Cheer up and have a GREAT day!!!
Oh, sure thing! Anytime, lady...
I'm kinda friendly, I guess.. So I'll be here whenever you're bored or whatever!
i'm sorry...
but being a deviant myself, i hope that you got full permission to use your background. unless it's yours. and if it is yours, i'm very sorry for disturbing you.
[Anonymous]
wow i never thought i would meet anyone who has written almost the same thing as me before... i always screw everything up 2... even tho ur older then me... i feel the same way....
thats kinda weird

ssamm
Hello! It's Sarah again. I just wanted to stop by to see how things are going with you. How is your day going? I am in Santa Ana, California, and I am going home from here in an hour or so. I am visiting some relatives. Joy. It's gonna be a six hour road trip home. Well, I'll pop by later, just to say hi!