I really know I love Dean nothing can change that. Doesn't matter how much people try to break us up I won't budge. I'm really happy I don't understand why anyone would want to take that away from me. I can't stand knowing that someone that I love and respect doesn't want me to be happy. Or atleast it feels that way. I'm glad we get out early today but I have to go home to daddy fussin' until he goes to work. I want to spend time with Dean. I really want to go his house. I'm still bleeding so I couldn't do anything. I don't even know what I'm doing this w/e. Life sucks when one of your parents tries step in too deep. I love daddy but he's just trying to make me depressed. I feel so broken. But of course Dean makes it better. I just hate that I have to have Dean make it better. Oh well. Daddy is just pushing me away and I can't fight the urge to stay away. Far away. If he wants that I will. Now I don't even want to ask him anything b/c I know he's going to say no. It hurts that he doesn't trust me. I need to feel trusted and loved. I love you, Dean!--