Being harrased by feelings again. Grr. Of course I know it's not a pinic but I would like it to go better. But I'm putting it all behind me. Trying to survive and not depending on anyone to pep talk me. I don't want to get in anyone's way anymore. I'm trying to be different. Maybe after I get my shit together I can date this guy that I kinda like. I was flirting with him when I was smoking with Markie in the parking lot. He's not the cutest but oh well, I'm not either. I do want to date someone but I won't tell him anything about my depression. I can just act happy--