Nothing's really up or down. I'm doing great here. We're meant to enjoy life and hang out with people we like. But this doesn't always happen. For me its so easy just to talk to everyone. And today I'll start talking to everyone. Even if I didn't like them before. I don't have to conform I just have to be different than I am now. I need to share the happiness. I can't be depressed anymore. I have no time for it. Although I did write a morbid poem yesterday. I was getting a little rusty on the writing of morbid, depressing stuff. I will never cut myself again so I stop writing about it. Its a lot better this way. But I still see others around me that still do it falling apart like I did. I'm really glad its not me falling apart. I'm actually happy now and I love that. Dean has made me happy too. I love you, Dean!--