Dean came over yesterday and I just realize that I was actually myself. I am comfortable around him. He makes everything thats bothering me go away. Beth called me talking about for me to remember everytime I kissed him. sucked his dick, or fucked him I was fucking her. Then she complained about me talking about Dean in my journal. I told her it was none of her business. I didn't tell her to read it. Its my journal so its my business and those who care about me. And I'm glad everyone cares. I just don't know if I could put up with her unless I had Dean and my friends and mom and daddy are supporting me too. My parents are pissed off. Sometimes when she says stuff to me its like I don't want to seem like I'm complaining to Dean so I don't tell him everything. Somethings are between me and her. They really hurt me too much to talk about. Anyway, I was thinking last night how I could open up to Dean. B/c every other time I have opened up to someone they would leave me. I'm just scared. I know Dean won't leave me. God I care for him so much. I think its too soon to call it love but I do love him so much. I talk about him all of the time. Everyone at school can tell I care for him a lot. Which I do. All that matters now is that I have someone that loves me and cares for me. Dean is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I care about him soooo much. I love you Dean.--