It's nice that people think I'm unique and not so ordinary. I was reading some of the things I wrote back in Dec of 2003 and I actually think I'm a lot better than I was then. And I'm so glad. I hope I do find the way out and everything will get better. I think it will. If I can just keep being who I am everything will get better for me. I have friends who care and family that loves me, I should be greatful. But sometimes I'm not. Not everyone is greatful all the time. I know I can't be perfect. I'm not trying to be perfect anymore. I just hope I can touch at least one person's life. It would make my life so much more worth while. I actually don't hate myself anymore. I just don't like how people treat me sometimes thats it.--