Like I need to cut but I just can't bring myself to do it. Erika is over here it almost 4:00am and she's in my bed sleeping. I'm kinda tired too. I might just sit up in my room and type very quitely but I don't know if I can really sleep when I want to cut so bad. I'm trying to use what self control I have and just say no but its really hard. Please cut me open and play with my insides. Oh well maybe next time... I hope Britt gets to come over tomorrow. (I miss ya bunchies) Anyway, I'm heading to my room.. Good night!--