I got another blade. Actually two. I'm going to cut tonight. And wonder how I got this far. Hope that nothing goes wrong and I wake up tomorrow. Although I don't want to. But I still have college and my career. I have to have kids before I die. Remember that. I won't end my life until I have something to destory. And I don't know so don't worry.
I'm looking forward to school starting. I might be able to post at school. Lets hope so b/c I doubt I'll have enough time @ home to do anything but homework. I'm trying to find more books about cutting. I read "The Luckiest Girl in the World" by Steven Levenkron. It was a good. book. I really liked it.
I can cut my life away.....--
It's selfish. You may not see it, but it hurts people. To see you do that. And if you kill yourself, there are people who care about you. And it will hurt them just as much as it hurts you. It's just a really stupid, selfish thing to do.
I'm not trying to sound like a douche or anything, I'm just saying..