Damn! These past two days has fuckin killed me! I've been depressed as hell because of some shit that my baby's daddy, Kenndal, said to me. I menan most of it wuz shit that didn't even make since, but it still hurt like hell! I wuz supose to go to my girl, Ashley's house, but I wuz juzt feeling way too damn depressed about Kenndal and I didn't want her thinking that I still was realy in love with him and shit and would leave her to be with him or something. I mean I will alwayz love him, but I won't forget this shit. I mean some things you juzt can't forgive! Plus, I think that me and Ashley wuz doin realy good at tha time. I know that I made her mad and probably hurt her over this shit, but I hope that when she reads this and the message that I wrote her that she will understand why I didn't go over there. I mean it would have been pritty fucked up to be at my girl friend's house and crying over Kenndal and being sick as hell over him and shit. I went to tha scating ring Friday and had a pritty good time, there won't realy anybody out there tho. Last night Bailey and me went out there again, to take my mind off of tha shit that Kenndal said, and everything wuz going good for most of tha night besides tha fact that Linsey wuz out there, and she juzt made things fuckin worse. Most of tha night I hung out wid Bailey, Terry Smith<-(I think), Brittany, Mindy, Justin, Seth Brown and Bailey2. Most of tha night I had fun until tha last part when I got sick as hell and through up all in tha damn parking lot. As soon as I got back to Baileys I threw up more, ate mash potatoes, tried to watch Oceans12, but I fell asleep first. I went home this morning about 10:00, talked to ashley a lil while, went walkin wid David Brigman and Justin and now I juzt came home to chill. Damn I'm lonely though!!!!