It's getting realy hard here lately to take all of this shit! I swair I'm thinking about cutting again, but I know that I can't while I'm pregnate. I love my child too much 4 that. I juzt need a friend. I wish that Bailey was here to talk to, but she's in Florida and no matter how hard we try it will still be weard talking to her when I know that she is that many miles away. She's alwayz known me before, but how can she know me know when she's not here? No one knows how hard I've been trying 4 my baby. Nobody knows how hard it is to keep it together. Why are people giving me shit about my life when this is the best that I've ever been??? I guess that's to be expected though. Shit is all I've ever gotten before. I've realy been proud of myself though. I know that noone else in my situation would be able to take it any better. So what, I got upset about Kenndal being down here and not even trying to get in contact with me and find out how his child is doing. What tha hell else would you expect me to do??? I mean damn I didn't even cut. I haven't cut (except 4 once), smoked, or drank since I found out I was pregnate. I think I'm doing pritty damn good. Fuck these people who are against me!