So...I'm thinking about closing this diary. I don't know why, I juzt don't see the point in it anymore. I feel like I have no friends and nothing new is realy happening that I want to talk about. I mean there is shit that happens, but I realy don't feel like being depressed. Damn...why am I so sad on my B-day? This sux! I juzt wanna be happy. I fuckin sick of feeling like shit!!! Nicole spent the night this weekend. She still says she straight so I berely even hugged her. That wuz fuckin depressing because I realy love her, and I'm scared to show her that because she says she don't love me like that right now, but she probably will later. I don't know...I juzt want to stop loving about her, all it's doing is causing me pain. So I had my shortest relationship ever this weekend too. I hooked up with Misty Brigman Sat. at the Underground when me & Nicole went, and then 30 min. latter she broke up with me because she said that I wuz still too in love with Nicole. I didn't realy care anywayz though...I guess cuz she's right, I do still love Nicole too damn much! So somebody hit ma back and tell me if you think I should keep this Diary running or not.