So...alot of things have changed in this past lil while. I'm basically through with school for the time being. I quit high school, and I'm going to a community colladge in January to get my degree. I feel like such a fuckin looser. I don't care though. I mean I'm still getting my deploma..., juzt not at a high school. Hell, maybe I'll even like it better this way. I've alwayz hated high school anyway. I mean I make great grades. It's juzt the way that everyone acts there, like everyone is better than you, and if you don't fit into something...then all you are is nothing. I'm fuckin sick of being nothing, so I though t a change might be good for me, and this way I can spend more time with Louie because class gets out at like 1:00 in the afternoon I think, or maybe earlier. I went to the hospital again yesterday and had to stay the night again. My pregnancy isn't going too well. It's kinda scaring me. I juzt got a few more weeks to hold out though, and then I'll have my baby boy! I can't weight...I'm juzt so fuckin scaired! I've been having nightmares with Kenndal in them again...I wish that he would juzt leave my mind...but then again I'm not sure if I realy mean that or not. Although I hate him...I have to admit, I don't think I'll ever stop loving him, no matter how wrong he did us. "I can't trust anyone, witness and see it in my eyes. Now I can understand, put faith in you for the last time. It's sorrow that feeds your lies."-A7X