Yea! I'm bitching again and no one gives a damn. I don't care though. I want to be loved, but I want to love the person who loves me. I can't love anyone more than I love Kenndal, and I alwayz knew that, and I even started to get use to it. But now I realize that I can't even love anyone else a little. He has rueaned me! I feel nothing for no one but him...(and of course our baby!) I can't weight until I have him/her! I could be alone forever. It realy dosen't make that much of a difference to me now. He is the only person that I want! It's kinda strange that he's a guy right? Yeah, I alwayz thought I would end up with a girl myself. I don't hate him, even though I say I do alot now. I juzt miss him and I don't understand why he's doing this shit to me! I know that if he had a choice he wouldn't, but that dosen't matter now! It's time for him to stand up and be the man that he has alwayz proved himself to me to be before! It's time for him to stop being scaired of his Dad, but then again, who am I to say anything? Look at what's happening to me now.