Okay first, I juzt wanna say...I love you James!!! Okay, now that I got it out of my system lol. Ignoring food is hard as hell! It smells so damn good...must keep strong and not break pact wid my baby! But yeah...it's hard. James and I made a pac to fast for a week together. I juzt need to get more water. I mean I know that I can do it, but I have to remember to drink alot of water...I don't want to faint like I did last time I stopped eating. But yeah I'm glad that we are doing this because it will give me a chance to loose some weight and then I'll feel better about myself. I mean it's not like I realy need to do it though, because James already makes me feel like the most Beautiful person in the world...I juzt want to keep him thinking that I am. Since we're on that subject.... This isn't a personal diary, my friends can read this, so I won't say too much about this...but I'll juzt say that I'm realy scaired about something. I don't know what I would do if this was true. More or less I would be completly fucked. I juzt can't stop, I love James sooooooo.....fuckin much and I want him to, and I need him to! I know James wouldn't let anything bad happen to us though. I know that he will alwayz take care of us because he is my protector and he loves me and Louie no matter what, as we love him. Okay...I hope nobody guesses what I'm talking about. I've only talked about it to James and Bailey...don't ask why I told Bailey...I juzt miss her. I love Louie and James 4~alwayz!!!!!!!!!!