To: Wayward Date: Feb 1, 2006 7:12 PM Subject: RE: RE: RE: hey Body: I understand that so much...I also tend to think alot, although I try to stay fairly mellow...in my own way I suppose. I dont claim to be a perfect person, and most people find me rather odd I guess you could say. But I do try to be nice, whether I do it out of the goodness of my heart, or karma, or whatever. I try to treat people like I would want to be treated, except most people never seem to treat me in the same way in return...I dont know I am just bitter I reckon. And I hope you message me soon, so I can bombard you with questions and witty reparte. ;-p I am sitting here pondering what to type, you leave me speechless(or textless lol), but I guess I will just be open with you...I crave company..I am an a contradiction even to myself...extremely introverted, with a tendency to act very extroverted its...unexplainable. But about the only way I ever get out my shell is to be with people I trust, and even then I tend to be guarded. I have been burnt alot...by alot of different things. I personaly view myself as broken, I have to smoke myself into a coma everynight, to just get a little rest. Its a crutch that kills me...but its the only way I know how to slow my thoughts down. My mind races constantly with this questions or that question...it drives me insane. I am very insecure, went a trend trowards being aggressive in a effort to show dominance, so that I dont appear to be as insecure as I feel on the inside.....alot of life is a front. And all of it is a illusion in some form or another....it is kinda calming when I look at it that way. But I am rambling and I seriously doubt you want to hear all of this...oh btw, I will be as 'deep' with you as you are with me, an equal trade. And I will be honest with you two a fault...just dont ask things you dont want the answer to. And I have to say...your company is addicting, and that damn smile you get.........it rips me in half, if you havent noticed. 8) I still cant believe how much you blush...it is refreshing, lol. On a side note...we really are very similar. It is scary in its own way, lol. If you are half as crazy as I am...it could get interesting real quick..lol. Message me =D Wayward Ronin ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Feb 1, 2006 5:50 PM I completly understand that...making a decision like that is rather tough...but I'm lonely, and basically I need someone now. The only two people who could ever realy understand me in this world are gone now, ( Bailey moved to Flordia and turned into a different person, and Kenndal left me and also turned into a different person). I'm not looking to tie anyone down with a relationship and I don't want to be tied down myself. I only wish to find someone who I can love, but not like in my past where I would love someone so much that I would cut if I wasn't around them 24-7. I juzt want to be able to be my complete self around someone and have that person be themselves around me too. I want love and huggs and kisses..., but I also want to be able to kick back with this person a watch movies and laugh, get fucked up and talk about whatever is on my mind no matter what it is. Your right..., I'm the type of person who is alwayz thinking, and I'm afraid that soon I may cave into myself because I no longer have anyone to vent my thoughts and feelings too...it's juzt me and Louie. Don't gey me wrong I love him more than anything...but he's still a baby and I can't talk to him in the way that I want to yet. ...But I swair he's going to be very intelegent when he's older because even now I try to talk to him as if he's a adult. ...well anymawayz..., sorry this was so deep. I juzt needed to do a lil venting. peace Danielle ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Wayward Date: Feb 1, 2006 12:49 AM *stretches, wishing C++ homework had never been invented* Hey, sorry I hadnt wrote back eariler...I didnt wake up till 1..been very very tired lately. But oh well. How was your day? And I am a hard person not to talk to, because then I will just act crazy until I make you laugh or they take me away in a straight jacket. I hope that you would laugh before that point though. As far as a relationship...I dont know, I cant say that I really even know you...minus music tastes. ;-P I think we covered almost all of that today, lol. But that doesnt mean I dont want to see if I cant get your computer back up and running, etc. You dont have to date someone just to be around them. *reaches for another coffin nail, wondering what to type* I dont know, something about you...just catches my attention. Whether it is the goth/punk thing, or the personality, or the attitude...I cant really say, but it is different...and crazy at the same time. How could I not try to get you to talk to me, lol. *sticks his tongue out as he goes to burn you a cd* Well...I am terrible at this email/letter thing, but maybe I made some sort of sense. I will probally be able to gauge it by whether or not you talk to me tomorrow. Wayward_Ronin, a.k.a James Cole Chavis P.S. I do hope you give me the chance to get to know you whether we end up neutral, friends, or partners. I am not such a terrible person, but I will be the first to admit...I am very indecisive. But when I make a decision I stick with it...it just takes forever for me to ever reach it. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Jan 30, 2006 8:55 PM Hey Hun! Wuts up wid ya? ....well I don't realy know what to say, 'cuz we juzt got off tha phone lol. But anymawayz..., like I said, I realy like you and i can tell that you realy like me too...so we should get together. I don't care if you have a g/f...fuck her. You want me more and you know it...cuz i'm special lol. But no, realy though...give me a try. I'm the type of person who once I realize I have no chance at something I completly drop it, and I'm kinda starting to get a lil hurt and starting to think that even though you clearly want me and know that I'm so much better than your girl, that for some reason your gonna give up on the chance of a life time, and choose not to be with me. Oh well...whatever. But I know u like me so I don't understand. I mean it's not like I'm asking you to make a life long commitment lol...I juzt want to date you and I mean if after a while you deside that you'd rather go back to ur girl...go ahead. That way at least we tried...u know wut I'm sayin??? Well anymaways, hit me back and tell me wut u think. Peace out and mad clown luv! Christine Danielle Talley To: Wayward Date: Feb 1, 2006 7:38 PM Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: Hey 8) Body: I just got the message that you where off, 8( although it still says you are online...strange I suppose. If you get the urge feel free to call me. I am gonna disconnect for a little while and just chill. Talk to you tomorrow if not sooner 8) ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Feb 1, 2006 10:32 PM well i g2g now my dad is home. i guess i'll talk to ya tommorow or i can talk on tha phone tho ...i think. ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Wayward Date: Feb 1, 2006 7:22 PM I'm about too 8), ya gotta give me a minute or two at least lol. I didnt even have it installed ;-P ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Feb 1, 2006 10:21 PM do u have AIM? ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Wayward Date: Feb 1, 2006 7:15 PM I just sent a very long message....lol. Do you have any messengers? *peers at you* I really must learn how to speak german ;-P ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Alwayz be 2~getha 'cuz were both under tha Moon! Date: Feb 1, 2006 10:09 PM yeah...ummm don't have yahoo messanger on this computer... 'kicks tha damn computers ass! ' lol ----------------- Original Message ----------------- From: Wayward Date: Feb 1, 2006 6:44 PM Will you message me on yahoo, lol. It is giving me all kinds of hell. (growls at his yahoo messenger) Just send a message to Wayward_ronin87 Chat with ya shortly 8) To: Wayward Date: Feb 12, 2006 4:47 PM Subject: Hey 8) Body: Hey, just got up not too long ago. Thought I would drop you a message. =) Hows it been going? And are you still good to go on coming with me say tuesday? I will have to get something put together, wish ya would drop more hints on what the hell you like doing. Lol. But any-more-wayz I'll be back around, will call you after I finish looking all this shit up. Isnt college life great. Love ya 8) To: Wayward Date: Apr 4, 2006 8:04 PM Subject: Hey Babygirl =-) Body: Hey...sorry about not calling you back...my dad got home and I had to help him =-(. I called around 10:20...but it was busy, just wanted you to know I was thinking about you and love you sweetness. Today was pefect...completely, now if I could just talk to you life would be great. *hugs and kisses* With all his love, James