I've been thinking alot lately. You know you realy can't trust anyone. Life if fucked up, but that's okay. I'm going to be happy anyway. "Then the devil reigns in heaven and heaven is hell"-Lestat. I love that quote! Here is another one that I think fits real well for my situation with Kenndal: "Let tears gather in your eyes. You haven't tears enough for what you've done to me"-Claudia. The 9th is comming up. I can't weight! I hope that the Dr. will be able to tell by then when he gives me the ultrasound if I'm having a baby girl or boy. I've desided not to call Kenndal and leave a message telling him what I have. I'm through calling him period. I never thought that he could be so crule. Now he will know my pain. It's already started. Bailey has asured Eric that I am completly happy and that I no longer think of Kenndal at all and that he is no one to me. I love Bailey...she alwayz comes in use for something. But now she's having her problems again. In doing this for me she is once again in the power of Eric. She's falling for him again although she dosen't realize it. I have to say, she is doing better this time though. Although she needs to realize that if you show hate for someone, your atomatically showing love for them as well. That's why I am getting Bailey to asure Eric, who will asure Kenndal, that I no longer love or hate him...basically that I could give a fuck less about him. Which of corse is the furthest thing from the truth, but he has to feel my pain, so he will. I don't need him anymore. I have my child, the only true love I'll ever need.