Fuck.............I feel so alone!!! Having no friends sux ass! Nicole is with her guys, Bailey is probably dead for all I know, I don't realy talk to Mark anymore, and everyone else has their own lives and are somehow still pissed off at me for something or another that I did to them in my past. I would be lying if I said that I didn't care about all this shit, but for some reason that is exactally what I feel like saying. I need somebody to love me. I juzt feel so alone right now. I feel like it's the end of the world. I never thought that Kenndal and I would be appart. I never planned for this. I forgive him though, as everyone knew that I would. I can't even bring myself to hate him; Isn't that pathetic? I hate too many people anyway. My hate is eventually going to eat at me until my heart is nothing but an empty black hole, dosen't that sound lovely? I've been feeling like shit today. I don't realy know why. I'm juzt basically pissed at the world. My baby is the only thing bringing me joy. I went swimming after chirch Sunday at Aunt Judys and I think the baby realy liked it because it was kicking around so much in my stomach that when I stood to get out of the pool I almost fell over lol! Next month I have a sonagram and I think I will know weather my baby is a boy or a girl. I will love it either way. It's either going to be Louie Armand McElrath or Bridgette Zaya McElrath. Kenndal and I both love those names so I don't care what anyone else has to say. I haven't had anyone in between when it comes to the names. They either love them or hate them. I don't care though. Fuck whoever hates them...daddy being one of them (He dosen't like Louie). Kenndal and I picked those names almost as soon as we started dating. Everything went fast with us. As I said we ran away together after only dating a month! God I miss him!!!!!!! Hopefully all of this will work out and we'll be together again. As of right now...I'm looking for marrage. Hell I'm even going to church for it. I'm thinking of meeting some older guy...but not too old...who has a lil bit of extra money, that at least is nice and going from there. To tell the truth I don't realy care who it is as lons as he treats my baby and I good because I know that I can never love another but Kenndal. I know some may think that's stupid. but when you know something like that, you juzt know it.