To the lost little soul: Goodbye sweet child I'll see you soon Remember alwayz I love you too Together forever Under the Moon Never fear Im here Together soon Tuesday, May 16, 2006 Do Not Tell ANYONE!!! Okay if your on my friends list I am trusting you with my world right now...show that you are a true friend and keep what I am about to tell you between you and me. I am the happiest that I have ever been in all of my life right now. James and I are working on getting our family together for good no matter what it takes. I'm trying my damnest in school and he is getting a job to make a lil extra cash and going to finish up his degree this summer as well. James has been calling and making all the nessary arrangements to find out what we need to do to get married and to move in together. Okay so yeah alot of my friends already knew that because all I ever do is talk about James and our family...well heres the part that you don't know....okay here it is lol...are you ready??? James and I are going to be proud parents once again! I am sooooo....happy and I know that James is too!!!!!!! I don't realy care what anyone thinks. I know that it will be hard but we will make it because we will alway stick together! I love Louie and James 4~alwayz!!!!!!! 6:17 PM - 1 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Saturday, May 06, 2006 Truly Gone...Truly New...Truly Me I'm pure once more. I am a new me...I am the true me. No more lies or sad goodbyes...this is true love. James and I are one and with Louie it makes our family. I've done away with all things Kenndal. The ring that "stands for our eternal love" and everything...because it was such sweet bullshit, because it was such beautiful lies. I'm sick of lies and tears and love only after the pain. I am ready to be happy now. I am able to be happy now, verry soon that is. Fuck what the world says, but this time I don't love juzt for spite. I love because it's true. I love because it's ment to be. I love Louie and James 4~alwayz! 9:41 PM - 2 Comments - 2 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Sunday, April 30, 2006 I mean it this time!...please believe me I quit cutting! No more damnet! I'm sick of this shit. James is right. My scars are ugly. Kenndal and I were fuckin stupid to think they were beautiful. That part of my life is over! I've been cutting since I was nine years old. This is going to be hard, but I swoar to James that I never would tuch a razzor to my arm to release the pain again, and I intend to keep that promise. But it's not realy about James...it's about me. I don't want to do this shit anymore! I eraced all of my pitchers and icons dealing with cutting from my computer today. I don't want Louie or James looking at me one day and saying, "Why do you hurt yourself when you know I love you, am I not enough to make you happy?" I wouldn't be able to take that shit. My dreams comming true are right aroound the corroner. I must keep striving toward them, and realy say goodbye to my past this time. Fuck this shit! I'm never cutting again!