Toy

by flertkilla
Feeling: broken
Okay so..., I finally got in touch wid Bailey. I don't know how long it will be befor I talk to her again though. I realy fuckin want her to move in with me and Louie, but I don't know how we're gonna pull this shit off. I mean daddy is already bitching about we don't have enough money to pay for heat this winter, so we might have to rent an appartment, and if we do that then theres no way in hell that Bailey will be able to move in cuz the'll be no damn room! I hope that we don't move though, not only because of Bailey moving in, but maybe I still have some sick fanticy of Kenndal comming back and making all of this better. Okay, damnet another reason to hate myself! It may be a sick fanticy, but hell no I don't expect it to happen. I don't even know if I realy want it to happen. He's not the person now who I love. The person I love died the day he left for Virginia. Now I only love Louie and Bailey. I mean fuck all these other bitches! If noone likes me, I don't give a damn! I'm happy and I will make my child happy and that's all that fuckin matters!
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Hey.....If I lived in your country, I'd probably hang out with u everyday, and yes it does feel rather terrible missing someone terribly...cheers to sweet misery :)

xoxox
Araya
Aye, i live in Australia, :D but I talk with a texan accent! lol

xoxox
Araya
fuck everybody else!!Hell yea just me you and Louie forever!!!Kenndal died that day and we both kno it! I would give anything to change it back for you!!! Because I kno how happy you were danielle and i wish i could give it back to you but i cant and we kno that it can never be tha same between y'all. and i kno that if i were down there, hopefully you wouldnt be missing kenndal so bad. Because i want to fix things for you and Louie as much as i
[toy]
can and you kno that. noone un derstands that and noone understands us. But then again, noone can. but now we can talk again all tha time because my phone is hooked up and tha number is 1-850-479-2295 but as proof that noone understands us check this out, me and chick have almost gotten into fights constsntly because im not taking her shit nemore. Get this: tha other day she said all i do is talk about danielle like danielle is everything but
[toy]
that me and danielle are not tha world. omfg hell no. I dont play that shit. Then, well, just read it on my diary but newayz. I did coke. And im probably doin it again tonight. Megan keeps gettin pissed off because i wont smoke pot wid her because im not doing it wid you. And she told me to just not tell you about it or whatever and im like are you fuckin insane? But i told her that she doesnt kno what this is like and she never will because
[toy]
noone can have what we have. Noone ever. And ima try and talk to mama as soon as i get home and tell her what we think we should do because i m,iss you and louie so fuckin bad and i wanna come home right now and move in wid y'all because i care about you so much. I will get on tha internet tomarrow because we dont have skool but i will try and be on it tonight as much as possible so we can IM and shit. but now i can caLL u and talk to you and u
[toy]
can call me so everything should be good i hope.
[toy]
dont hate yourself, your a very cool person, you know why.