This world is so fucked up! I hate living in it. I wish that I could live outside it all. I wish I could make the days go away and desrtoy the order. For one seckond in life I felt whole. I don't understand anything! Why tha hell does it have to be this way??? Why can't I juzt be me??? Why won't they let me be me??? Why won't I juzt let me be me??? Who tha fuck am I to stop it??? Who tha fuck am i to live or to breath this rancid air??? Juzt take me away already. I close my eyes and death seems so sweet. It taste of candy apple and all the colors are pink. I close my eyes and brace myself. This the only live there is to live. This life must come to an end. I understand there is nowhere to hide. I understand that the only way out is to die. The only happy is pain. The only forgiveness is in love filled with sorrow. Fuck this....this only life I have to live. I'm alive!