I wrote this sometime a week and a half ago. It feels like everything is fading. I don't know though. I guess that this is how it's supose to be. I don't think I'm gonna miss all of this. These few months that I have been a teenager has been fun and exciting, but I would have given all of this up to still be with Kenndal. But...unfortunatly, I have to let that fanticy die. Maybe one day we'll be able to be together again, but I know that it will never be the same. He has become my enemy now, as well as anyone in his family besides our child. The war is on. I never wanted it to be this way, but then again does anyone ever get anything completly the way they want it? I've learned to look past all the pain and deception and to be truly happy with the fact that I found my true love once, spent the best year of my life with him, made love to him, and from that love making Kenndal and I have created a child that will be loved more than any child that's ever been born into this world or any other! It's time for me to grow up again. I was an adult at nine years old. I've been a teenager for these past few months. It's time for me to grow up again. I'm perfictly fine with that. I actually look foward to it! My whole world is changing. Everyone (Bailey & Kenndal) that I've ever trusted has gone. I know that I'll never trust anyone else besides my child, so then I shall be alone. It's now my time to make sure that my baby is never alone! No one will ever seperate me from my child! No matter how hard they try.