Wow...so much has happened since I last wrote. Isn't it strange how life goes on? Isn't it strange how before you know it the end of a period is over and another one is already half way through. Louie will be 3 years old in November, and baby Brayden will be 1 in october. I don't even know if I wrote in here what our lil man's name was going to be...but as you see it is Brayden. I learning how to live again...after mearly surviving for so long. I long for my life to become a better home...and the happyness grows as does God inside my soul as the days go on. I'm learning how to be free and to be a loving mother and wife at the same time. I want to channel my inner thoughts for all to see. I don't care if no one wants to listen and I don't care if people try to hurt me because they will never suceed because I have the lord on my side and I will use his name to move mountains. I want to cause a breakthrough. Alot of people in my life have juged me incorrectly. The believed that juzt because I am ignorant. I may not know how to spell but I can learn. I may not know much about grammer, but I can learn. They can never learn the experiences that I have had, and they can never be me. I want to help make the world a better place again...and I still have no clue how...but I'm working on it. I love incubas...their words really make me think. Their music feels like me...it feels like home. I want to open my arms up to all that I am and who I can be. Everything that I was can wash away. No one is perfict, and believe me I'm far from it...I juzt want to be as close to Jesus and God as I can be. I senceraly want to make a difference, and I don't want to be afraid anymore. With all the horrable things going on in todays life I want to revert back to the past. I want to live from the bible and not from the words of man. I put my faith in God and in my familey...never again will I trust the hands of human kind, for we are an evil creature and must curve our wicked ways. I will embrace love and happyness. I will worship my God, our Lord Jesus Christ and surrender my soul to no man. My heart belongs to James and our souls are ment to be together, but they are owned only by God. I know that I am a walking contradiction sometimes, but that's how you have to be in live to be just and to be balanced. You have to base your life from minent to minent and situation to situation. I lift my life up to you Lord, and let those who will join you and may your will be done on earth as it is in heaven...Amean.