I'm ready for shit to start. I mean there is alot of things comming up for me and I'm sick of weighting on it. I want to feel safe and secure again. I know I'm weard for saying this but I've alwayz hated Summer. I alwayz feel so alone...hell when I'm at school I feel lonely enough with everyone ignoring me...but atleast there's someone there to ignore me you know. Well I geuss it's not realy that bad. I mean over a period of time I do manage to make some friends, but they all slip away in time and I'm left picking up the peaces of a broken life once more. I juzt wish Bailey would come back, or atleast put minunets on her fuckin phone so that I can tell her that I'm having a boy. I know that she's realy pissed at her mom right now for not putting minunets on. She's been my best friend for 9 years now...but I guess it's time to make new friends. Even though Bailey hates it, she has her new life in Floridia now and I'm sure we'll both juzt become part of eachothers past in time. We will alwayz be sisters though and Juggalette hommies 4 life & death!!!!!!! I'm juzt ready to be social again. I'm fuckin sick of talking to machines! All I ever do now is read and surf tha net. Next Thursday I start school and I'm ready! I can't weight to have something to do. And in October I will be turning 16, so that's good too. And then in December I will be having my baby! I know that is what I'm realy ready for. I'm ready for my life to start. I'm ready to be appart of the whole process of life. I will make it. I know I will! Even if I have no one on my side I believe in me. Being a good mother is the only thing besides being a good girlfriend to Kenndal that I've alwayz know that I could do. I have to be a good mother, because I know how having a bad one is. I know who having no one there for you is and I wont let that happen to my child. Fuck his father! I know that he won't be there...but I also know that I will be there and everything will be okay.