Today................. just another day. I hate it. I hate waiting for things to happen. I hate being bored. I hate all of it. Me and Nicole went up to the track field after school. Jarren saw us and came over to talk with us. He ended up just talking to NIcole................ The worst loneliness is to be standing next to the person you love, knowing that you can't have them. If only he could know................... ...that my heart started to pound as he ran towards us. When I see him coming my way down the hall..my stomache flutters. When he smiles...I melt...................... in his eyes. If only,....if only he could know how I feel. If only I wasn't so shy and timid. I would shout it to the world..only the fear of my heart breaking ........... ..................again is holding me back...but it's a good reason right? No one wants their heart torn out and stomped on. I just feel like it has been crushed..over and over..and eventually there will be no feelings left. Doesn't he realize that as soon as he graduates..the chances of him seeing all of us again..are zero. He will be gone. ..and my heart with him. He will be lost..but not forgotten. But he will still be gone....no one can change it..though I wish that I could. WHY CAN'T HE UNDERSTAND!!??