*sigh* So many questions, yet so few answers. The world sucks that way I've decided. "the worst loneliness is to be standing next to the person you "want" knowing that you can't have them" so true it pisses me off. Tonight was lots of fun, mike matt ryan amy emily and I all hung out. We raced in mine and mikes cars. 2 words freaking. fun. On the way home I listened to my rap music, which was nice..because SOME PEOPLE weren't making fun of it....jk..its all good. It was funny. I started to try and analyze my feelings. Its like I get this sure high..or maybe just this high feeling that seeps its way into my viens when I'm around him. I stumble constantly over my words like a drooling idiot. If he looks at me I get nervous and look away, an dall of a sudden I get all shy. When asked I suppose he said two things 1. I was just a friend (that's pretty cool) 2. I'm fun to flirt with. 3. There "might" be potential there for something else. that's three..I'm good at counting and stuff. I haven't had a crush for so freaking long..and it's wierd that it's happening when Guido is coming back so soon. Time. It's all about time. I like having crushes, and sometimes I'd rather have this crush then an actual relationship because, well.....I'm still a youngen and I want to have fun, and be able to flirt with other guys and not worry about it, I don't want to be tied down. But then other times I really really want to be with someone, hold hands for fun, whisper sweet nothings into each others ears, share secrets, flirts excessivley and always have someone there that I can count on...no matter what. It's all very confusing as you can see. any advice would be nice.