Things are getting better. The anti-depressants are starting to do their trick, and the gym attendance is definitely making me feel more energized. I'm nervous about it. Nights are still really hard. The crying hasn't stopped. Sometimes it's 5 minutes, sometimes an hour. I wake up and my eyes feel dehydrated and scratchy. It interesting. I didn't really give way to tears when it was actually happening. I was in to much shock. I wasn't really thinking about anything. But now that it's over, and over for good I can't seem to get control of them. Enough of that. --------------- In brighter news... My Biology Lab instructor is an angel, and is allowing me to rewrite some lab reports, allowing me to do some work for extra credit and giving me some extra help with studying for the final. ENVS 2340 is going ok. We took a test yesterday which I don't feel to grand about but we'll just have to see today. Biology is ok. I talked to Podgorski and he's letting me retake some quizzes, has set up some study appts for me to come in and work with him, and is considering letting me retake the midterm. Daddy is letting me work for him up in the lab, I've got a pretty constant dog-sitting/house cleaning job which will suffice until summer. I leave for Australia the middle of May to stay with my Aunt Judy for the summer, and then some. I'm primarily going to see my Aunt Susan as she's having a triple bypass surgery on her heart. And as soon as she's somewhat back on her feet I'll be working with my Uncle Peter getting a Humanitarian Aid project to Taiwan ready, and traveling around to see all my relatives. Guido promised to call a bunch this weekend so I have that to look forward to. Even though it's hard right now. I hate it when he's depressed. I'm worried... really, when am I not? Also this weekend I'm hanging out with the girls!! I guess I should get started on rewriting those lab reports.