Well, that's interesting... I've altered the way that I pray. And I've found since I've asked for the ability to notice the"discernment" between right and wrong, and just the sensitivity that I have towards people's energy that some pretty amazing things have happened. I wasn't sure what to say, to either one of them. I was nervous because I wasn't sure what was happening and I still don't know how I said the things I did. I do know, however, that the words flowed easily and it felt good to talk about things that I know to be true with both of them. I'm still not sure why he tried to get in contact with me. I had the thought on Sunday that something like that would happen, but pushed it onto the back burner because I knew that I didn't want it to happen. It did. And I handled it. Poorly. But I handled it. And after I panicked and cried because it hurt badly. This is something that is going to take time to heal, how much time- I don't know- but I know that's it all apart of some bigger plan that I don't understand right now... but one day I will. Plans for the summer might be different. I had everything planned out but there's been an upset in the layout and now things may or may not have to rearranged. I hope that it doesn't. I really want to go to Australia to see my family. I don't feel 20 yrs old.