The ants just wouldn't leave me alone. I'm feeling eerie, not sure why. 5 more days, then I'm gone :) And hopefully everything will be alright, hopefully I'll be able to just forget for awhile. I was craving goldfish so I went to the Supermarket and instead bought myself a delicious grapefruit. The bitter juice tasted delightful. There are few things that I truly like the taste off. Spinach is one of them. Grapefruit juice. Salt. Black pepper. and Curry. Sugar is starting to make me gag. Whatever. Maybe I'm being overly sensitive, but it's just NOT my style to sit around and talk about all the annoying habits that my friends have. It happens all the time. We end up sitting on the couch, and since I don't agree I often find myself silent just thinking and listening to what they say about whoever doesn't happen to be present. Sometimes it's this person, sometimes it's that- it's whoever isn't there at the time. They go on and on and on and on with no end in sight until someone realizes that I'm not participating and they want to know why. And what do I say? That I think picking people apart is trash? That I HATE the way they hold themselves almost higher than everyone? That I don't care 90% of what they're saying because I love my friends for who they are not what they do? I just don't understand why. I'm sensitive. I just don't find it uplifting or enjoyable. I mean does it really matter that this person isn't perfect? Or that they don't meet standards that another find vital. We're all people with different backgrounds, styles, values and standards. We have different needs and wants. And that's just the way it is. I don't know. Maybe I'm just being stupid. I need some Guido chat time pronto though.