Now that he is on an International Flight to North Carolina...I am beginning to realize what I really am. I can't believe that I got caught up, just like I always said I wouldn't. ...I promised I wouldn't... M.....why didn't you slap me across the face like you promised....I feel as though I've missed out on everything. And although I don't regret any of the time I spent with him. I realize now that I miss my friends....my real friends, the ones that aren't going anywhere....the ones that really do matter to me. I'm not saying that I wish I could do things over because, this summer with him has meant the world to me, I've learned so much, and I've grown so much, and hey....he has given me a whole new outlook on life, and on....well..everything that matters to me. I just wish that I could have been more involved..as well, who knows what the future could hold...who knows you might move, or go away, or leave.....I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I missed out. I"m sorry for promising to hang out all summer and dye my hair, and everything else I said that know just seems like lies. ..I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for.....acting like I don't care..when in reality, I care about you guys alot...I got caught up, and I liked it, but maybe it just wasn't the best thing. "Ignorance is bliss"