I can't believe that I have been so..immature for so long. I thought that I just had a love for life. ..that's all... ..I didn't think that my laughing at everything would bug everyone so much... ..especially Sammy..... But no... today at practice..I was laughing at a dumb joke... ...and everyone just like freaks out...even my best friend told me to shut up...not jokingly either.. ...she said it all seriouse......I don't know what to do... ...I didn't think that I bothered everyone so much....I guess that it's time I realize that life isn't a party....even though it's easier to pretend that it is.. ...I want to laugh..but the world is growing to seriouse......they don't laugh at themselves...or the dumb things that they do... ..they all have to be seriouse.... ..I guess.....its time that I need to also.... ...goodbye my old self....it's time to be mature.... ...and not bug everyone.....