So, things are pretty interesting I guess. I decided that I'm either really desperate, or I'm missing someone really bad...or maybe I'm just both. The other night I sat out in the rain, on my car (my butt got soaked.but it was fun) After sitting there for a few minutes. The rain pounding on the metal roof of my car make a pretty sound. I decided that was pretty boring so I ran in it, played in it, and jumped in every puddle that was around the block. freezing. refreshing. I went upstairs, showered, put on my freaking awesome pajamas and looked outside. I love how the rain disorients everything, making the light from the streetlamp seem more abstract then it actually was. incredible. "hello sweetheart" "who is this?" "you don't know who this is?" "um, no, that's probably why I'm asking" "remember the twirly slide?" "oh my gosh....I. miss. you. so. bad." memories. "what have you been up to?" "nothing really" "nothing at all..come on..what's new?" "nothing...really?" lies. "oh ok." "I miss you" "I love you" "I'm glad that we care about each other" "I'm glad that we are there for each other" lets. make. it. forever. "I have something to tell you." "yes?" "I haven't missed you as much as I thought I would, I still miss you, but it's not that desperate feeling anymore" "oh" "are you angry?" "no, I still feel that way though" "I'm sorry" honesty. "I stil want you to come" "I still want to come" "maybe you'll think differently..when we are alone together" "why are we going to be alone together" "because I want to be" decieving. "what are we going to do?" "you'll find out..it's a surprise...you aren't scared are you?" "why do we have to be alon?" "we are always alone" "it's true...ok..I guess we can be together..alone again" scared. "I have to leave now" "I really still love you..I just can't see or feel you" "that will change" "goodbye" 'bye" *click*