yeah..I'm not really frightened..I just closed my eyes and randomly clicked the mouse...yeah..this diary thing is kinda getting boring... ..when I first got this..I wrote like 5 entries a day...but...now..it's like when I have absolutley nothing else to do..... ....it's kinda wierd.... ..anyways... I saw Coach this morning.....it was kinda cool I guess...she said that I had a different presence about me...like..I was more confident and stuff... ..it's true....I'm a whole new person..especially since she influenced my life in ways that none of you guys could imagine.... ..it was cool seeing her..but at the same time....kinda.....peculiar...I mean..it wasn't the way that I planned on seeing her again... I was expecting to run up to her and give her a big hug and tell her how much I missed her and stuff...but....I didn't ...all I did was say 'HI...how are you doing?"..and then that was the end of the conversation... ..I really am a different person.....I kinda like it... ...It used to be that I needed a guy to make me happy..but that' s not the case anymore... ..it used to be that I had to run to someone with my every problem..but even that has changed dramatically.... ..I can take care of myself now..I don't need Coach to be there for me...because I'm fine by myself.... ..I like that feeling of independence...its comforting....in a strange way...but I like it life rox!