..hello..... ...my name is Sarah..... .....you guys don't really know me....but C-dawg is letting me use her diary..since mine isn't up..... yet...... Anyways..I just wanted to write about how my day went..... School...was...a blur..... ....I drove once again (after school)..to my special place....the place were no one ....and.....nothing can ever find me.... ..ever hurt me....... No one knows where it is...I will not tell....but I feel safe.....when I am there..I feel like I am everything that I want to be...I am content with who I am.... I feel..... ..free... Sometimes.....I feel...I am in a fake world....where the mountains......they are only murals on large slabs of granite...I feel like the clouds...are nothing more.....then white cloth..floating in the breeze.... ..I feel like I am in a dream...I like those days..but they get me thinking...and that can be wierd sometimes.... Life right now...is so strange....I get up in the morning..and never know what to expect....I don't know what will happen...everyday is a new adventure...whether it is good.....or bad..... Either way...it is an adventure....I talked to this guy that I sorta think I like..... He's a Junior at the school that I go to.....he's extremley nice...and he has a strange look about him...it's michievious....and I like it.... I don't know why I said that...how stupid..anyways...my day....was...well..... there are no words to describe the undescribable..... I feel..threatened...even though I know that I am not....I see people..I am in a large crowd..and he keeps getting closer...he keeps trying to get me..... he tries to take me....but I run...I run with everything that I live for....he can't take my heart...only to tear it up..... He can't..I won't let him..... He seems so sad at times..I don't know what to do..because that makes me sad....he is happy....but then he is so desperatly depressed at the same time...as confusing as that sounds....it makes sense to me.... It's kinda conceptual......I mean..Everything that life is....that it can be.... ...it seems so unreal..that all of this is happening.... Anyways...I had to get that out..I know that it made no sense whatsoever...but I think that the only thing that matters..is that I could see it in words..what I was feeling... C-dawg...thanx a bunch for letting me use your diary.....I will let you write on mine..when I get it up....(you'll be the 1st to know...lol) Bye you guys