4:30 on a Saturday. Man, I was so unbelievably tired, but I had lots of fun. Sitting out on that boat was pretty cool, watching the sunrise, fishing. I'm still not a HUGE fan of it, but it was a lot more fun then I thought it would be. Getting into the water and waiting for a carpe to come swim around was extremely cold. But I soon got the whole spearing thing down. I caught 2. I gave them both to him to take home. We caught some catfish and just kinda paddled around talking about his next weekend plans. Bear hunting. That kid's crazy. He was pretty cool to talk to though. I still haven't called Damien, I want to, but know that I most likely won't. Today I might make the biggest mistake of my life. Isn't it wierd how we are willing to risk part of ourselves to supposidly make ourselves 'happy'? I know that it's stupid, but..I can't help it. I shouldn't let myself sink to that level, but.....I know I will. I'll regret it later, but.....at least for a couple moments thinks will feel alright. *sigh* I am really missing Guido. I thought about him all day yesterday. I wonder what he's doing, what he's thinking, and it make me even more impatient for summer to come. Might go sunglasses shopping today. I want some really nice ones that will last me for a couple years. M might come with me. It's raining again. mm..rain.