I have no idea what I meant by the title of this dang thing.. ...but... life goes on....yes indeed it does......I don't want to get old... Old people are wrinkly and they smell funny. I don't want to NOT be able to take care of myself....I want to be self sufficient..... .I don't want to have people take care of me when I no longer can take care of myself... let's just say that I am feeling independent right now....I know that my parents have bought everything that I own.. ..so not all of it....but most of it....and some people may call that spoiled.....but how can you be independent...when you don't have a job. .....so anyways...this summer I will be getting money..and I am not going to let my parents pay for anything... except car insurance... cuz I won't be making THAT much money..,.I'm just gonna be a lifeguard....and well....you can tell what that means,,,,(actually they do get paid pretty good)... How the heck did I get on that subject....anywho...so I read one of my friends entries..and it said something like this: "I haven't even told my best friend who my crush is....because I don't want to make it a big deal" So..now I am thinking that people think that I make a big deal out of things...I mean...everyone does once in a while...but it kinda made it sound as if she doesn't really trust me.... which I must say disturbs me.... hmmm...I guess that I just won't worry about it...I don't know what the heck she was talking about..but.......oh well......it's her deal...so I'll let it be.... .....Iv'e decided that sometimes people are really really negative all the time... ...for instance..I really really think that it would be fun to go to Lagoon this summer...with everyone...but everyone keeps on saying. "but...."......."what if?"........"what about"....I mean come on....let's just do it and not worry about so much stuff... If no one can drive..we'll have our parents take us...which is not a bad thing of course...but it would be a lot more fun the other way.... If you don't think it's a good idea...then just say so and don't be like.."well that sounds fun..but" I mean....you don't have to like my idea...it's not like I'll make a big deal about it ...Emily!!... I mean come on... I don't think that I am that shallow...but...if you guys do think that...... good for you..and I'll leave that......at that..... I saw some of the swim team boys at this fireside I had to go to...It was sad...because both of them ignored me...I think that.....hmm...they are wierd.. yeah..I also saw this girl...that really bugs me right now....and she once again..made me feel like a loser.. go her..I hope that made her day...... anyways...then I saw Kristy...which was wierd...because I haven't seen her since the swim team banquet...she played the piano...which was rockin' awesome by the way. ....So yeah..she doesn't know if she will be coaching next season...I don't have any preferences there...either way...I really could care less... hmmmm..I'm feeling hungry...and this entry is getting really long... HA HA HA HA!!