I am nothing more then a good-for-nothing-spend-freak-chika-that-is-in-love-with-toys.... ..*sigh*.. Man, I just feel like I need to spend 1,000 dollars and by me a new cool sounds system for my car. I'm going to give in I know it..but still. I've spent all my money (well..not all....but some) on toys...... hmm, oh well. That's ok I guess. Most of the stuff I have gotten I will keep and use for the rest of my life, at least I plan to..unless of course something else new and better comes out *shrugs* I'll just have to wait and see how things go I suppose. He sent me another e-mail....yay for me. It made my day a whole heck of a lot better. This morning was jang dangy fun though...I hung out with Nicole..only for about an hour..but still. I never get to hang out or even talk with her anymore it seems. It was nice to hang out with someone who's friendship means the world to me. Later tonight I think we are going to hang out to..Should be fun. I love the background to this thing..I don't know why..but whenever I log on and see it...I just sigh in content.......maybe....I don't know...I'm wierd.... I miss Teresa so bad!...I been reading her diary consistently since she departed to NZ...it sounds and looks like she is having a good time...but..it makes me miss her. *sigh*..She'll be back before I know it....yay!... Her and Caleb sound like they are going to hit things off....that would be so cool!..I'm crossing my fingers for you Teresa!! *chelsea crosses fingers* I was talking to a good friend of mine..his name is greg.....I've never met him in person..but..he seems like a really nice guy...and...I can talk to him about anything because..well....he's never really met me, therefore he can't judge me. I kinda wish that all friends were like that..people that you could just spill to and you wouldn't have to worry about what they were saying behind your back or anything. He's so cool. He wanted me to tell him a little bit more about me, so I did..one of the things that I told him was that I was adopted....when I was 8 days old. He said he felt sorry for me..... ........I took that extremely offensivley........... Why the heck should he feel "sorry" for me. I didn't even know who my "real" parents were, but I don't care..because..the parents that I have now have always been and will always be my parents. No one, not even my biological parents could replace ever...EVER!. That makes me so mad that he said that...he said that I didn't get a chance for a "normal childhood"...What the heck is that supposed to mean.....I had a great childhood....I have so many amazing memories....I can't believe that he even suggested that.......It serioulsy pisses me off. Just because I'm adopted does NOT make me any different then anyone else. I have a family and I love them very much, if I lost any of them...I would lose a part of me. I don't care if I'm "blood" related..it DOES NOT matter. Your family is your family, and your family love you for who you are no matter what anyone says or thinks. I just wish that he could understand that.