*sigh* Here I am in California, supposed to be having the time of my life site-seeing and such, and here I am in the lobby, connected to the internet just typing away. I just couldn't stay away from you computer. My main purpose of getting on the Internet was to check my e-mail. Justin case he has sent me one back. I know that he only got back there Yesterday night, but still. One can hope eh? I miss him so much, I don't think that he realizes how much. News on the whole Venice deal. Carianne may be coming with me. It should be exciting if all of this works out according to plan. On the plane here I couldn't help but think that the flight was taking me farther and farther away from him. It was insane how everything related to him in some bizzare, irrelevent way. *sigh* I had a dream today. We has just checked into our condo and decided that I would take a 20-minute nap. I dreamed that he was with me, in California, the weather was good (which it is by the way, hot, humid, I love it!)...and when I woke up I reached out to touch his face...but got the pillow instead. It made me sad in a good kinda way. Dreams are the best, and with our minds being the most powerful thing that we have, it can make the dream seem as real as it gets. I'm glad for that. Hmm..I know you guys are so sick of hearing about him. But see, "Once you love someone, they forever become a part of you". How can you just stop caring about someone that changed your life completley? That made you think about life, and the world, and reality in a whole new way. Someone that changed you for..well, ever? The point is, you can't. No matter what you do, they will always influence you, you can't change that. I'm glad that I can't change that. School starts soon, and I'm actually excited to get back and start learning things, not only that but..understanding them to. Wow. I've changed so much, it's kinda scary. All I talk about now is reality, and understand life, and .....stuff. What happened? ..Guido happened... Thank you for changing me. Thank you for helping me. You are the best. I.love.you.