all people. they are stupid. i wish i didnt feel the need to have friends. i wish i could just not feel the want of being with someone and be happy to be alone forever.but my own feelings and emotions betray me. they make me reach for others because i cant stand being lonely. but i wish i could. i wish i could be alone and that would be perfect. people ask me if i would like to be alone. and i say yes. they walk away. and really...i'm screaming in my head for them to come back to me. please return so i can spill my soul to you. and if they do return i mutter some rude words and they leave again. my own words betray my thoughts, and my thoughts betray my words. and then there's my friends. are they my friends? my best friends doing stupid things and expecting me to be ok with it. i cant understand. i dont understand. i want to understand but it just doesnt work. they make me unhappy in the things they do.i wish i could look past just the things they do but with no avail. i cant do this anymore. i cant. i love them all but i just dont know how to deal with everyone and everything. what do i do now? i wish i wanted to be alone. but i dont.