my brain hurts and i'm wondering why i went outside and stood in the sun. i'm wondering why i went outside, stood in the sun, and thought about how sad i am. why am i sad? it's pathetic to feel sorry and sad for myself. i'm pathetic. i'm a selfish person that's feeling sorry for herself. what the fuck? i should be doing homework right now. i should be sitting in my room working on making up math homework so i can bring up my grade. but no. i'm sitting here typing about how sad i am. how sad. ugh. i'm sick of feeling this way. i sigh and stare out into the dark oblivion of nothing.