at some point i crawled onto the couch again. the soft red blanket was there and i pulled it over me. at some point i had a pillow under my head and Lars curled up beside me. at some point i started breathing in a steady pace and i was thinking of many things. i was wondering how diana would make this cool and she did a wonderful job. i was wondering how long they stood there talking when i left. i was thinking about negativity and how shapeshifter is always sad and i cant make her happy for even one second. there's always that frown that resides upon her lips and it will not cease to exist. tomorrow i will fail the algebra two test and i will not care. i will not care because i hate my teacher and i feel nothing for grades. i will feel nothing for grades until my father calls my counsler and finds out i'm doing terribly in algebra two. death to algebra two. i want to graduate highschool and i dont want to die. i have water polo practice at 5:30 AM tomorrow and i dont want to get up with cold feet and stingy eyes. i dont want to do a lot of things including thinking of him anymore. i want sour gummi bears and the power to fly. that's the only power i would want. let me fly and i'll love you forever. then i can get away whenever i want. the feeling must be beautiful. “Quoth the Raven, ‘Nevermore!’” -amanda