my positivity didnt come until about 4:00 PM today. i play it off well, no? my positivity didnt want to come until i was sitting with them and watching ardo and the boy that cares play soccer. this morning welcomed me with a stomach ache and sleepy eyes. they stung. all day i wanted to go home. all day i was about to go home. then each class trudged by and i just somehow decided that i would stay? i dont know. but i ended up staying until 6:00 PM. what's wrong with me? i'm wearing the same clothes all week. the only thing different is my underwear, sometimes socks, and my jacket. today i wore my green jacket and Omni friend didnt come to school today. so i was happy when i called her. i dont know why, but now i'm in a good mood. this will not last.