people are plenty weird. and i'm just nowhere. school's out on wednesday. i wait for that day with no patience. i want to drive. i want to drive away from here and go to the beach with nathan, or ardo....or god. i want to go away from my house. i want out of here. i want out of school. i want to walk to los cotijas with joey and david and sit and talk about nothing and everything. i want to get a job and get money and buy cds. i want to go to sleep and forget for a couple minutes. what fel is mad about it so strange. i dont know what's going on in his head. he's telling me he needs to distance himself from me because i only bring him pain because i'm always with ardo or nathan. this doesnt make sense to me. if it makes sense to anyone out there please explain it to me. until then...i'll just sit here thinking about how Steve, my goldfish, is floating upside down in his tank, but still his gils are moving and i can't put him out of his misery. my misery. your misery. and we all scream for icecream.