I'm thinking about the past few days. I realize dense forest of pure green is beautiful. I realize i already knew that. I realize the cold Pacific coast with waves crashing againsts cliffs is beautiful. I realize i already knew that. I realize three days in Oregon is enough. I realize I like the city, light, and being around people I hate. Everything I already know is so easy. It's so easy to accept, nod, and understand. It's so safe. Warm. Uninteresting. All the damn mood rings told me I was calm. They told me I was relaxed. They told me I had love. Mood rings don't know what the hell they're talking about. Try on one. two. three. four. I hate Mood rings. She sits on a bar stool smiling broadly in my direction. It was a cheap imitation of a smile. I'm sure she paid close to nothing for it, worse, possibly my mother bought it for her. "what did you do on vacation Amanda?" I spent most of my time wallowing in self pity, thank you very much. I spent most of my time in the room given to me, watching the audio commentary on any DVD I could get my hands on. The bed was a Full size, slightly smaller than mine at home. I spread out and drank Margaritas. Lonely. Pathetic. hah. I laugh. And now. I'm home. -Amanda