Whenever I get this satisfied feeling I also get nervous. Just when I'm sitting alone or driving---you know, when I have time to think. It's interesting how if I just wait things out something miraculous happens. I don't know if I find that to be something more than the process of life, or if there is more to it. I'm not really saying that I'm balancing on the probability that I have faith or not...but it's interesting. Interesting and a bit silly, perhaps. All in all my current days of existence have been above average, and I really appreciate that.