there is a moment in time when i'm not mad anymore. i take what has happened, what is happening, what might happen, and i stop being mad. i'm ok now. maybe this is a one day thing, but right now, i'm ok, and that's what matters. the right now. it feels good to tell your thoughts to someone. it feels good to listen. it feels good to take a shower and brush your teeth at the same time. i like doing that. i found beautiful black and white pictures of my mother when she was around my age. my mother is beautiful. it's nice to see her before there was me. i'm going to be ok tomorrow. i'm glad about that. i really am. i dont need to be sad anymore. i really dont. how does "Jen, Alice, or Sanity" sound? stupid? i could make it better..that was just a thought.