fel, the gingerbread duck, doesnt understand that i dont like him the way he likes me. he wants me all to himself. he is just extremely jealous of one of my best friends, who just happens to be a guy. fel just doesnt realize that you dont plan a friendship. it's not like i planned to become best friends with god, and i didnt plan to become best friends with nathan either. it just happens. fel says that i dont apply myself to him the way i apply myself to others?! what the fuck? like it's a job to be a friend and i'm slacking on being his? i dont understand. he's telling me that he wishes he could be as close to me as nathan is. well it takes time to be that close to me, you cant shove yourself at me and expect me to tell you everything. i dont tell my feelings to just anyone, especially when they think i dont apply myself to them. and yes. i've told all this to fel...but it's like it flys right over his head...does he understand? no. i try to talk to him in person and he freaks out and cant talk...so then he writes me a note telling me he'll die to be by my side...what the hell?! i just met you this semester fel! i never did anything to lead you on!!!! so fucking confusing and fucking stupid. i miss ardo sitting infront of me. fel...i dont like gingerbread ducks like that...i'm sorry...but i do like gingerbread...