I feel washed out. I feel tired. I slept most of the day, waking up at random times, only to whine, roll over, and fall back asleep. It's too hot to concentrate and everything becomes a day dream. I feel annoyed and bothered. I don't want to feel anything. I miss the numb feeling because when I feel this way I'm too affected. Knowing, pretending, believing, denial, relaxing, running, highstrung, over it, passionate, bored, immortal, dead. I don't know what I want from me. I don't know what I want from anyone. Let me out of here, I want to find something else. I want to be happy constantly. I sort of feel I should leave everything.