i could wait forever for this afternoon. you wouldnt fuck me up would you? you wouldnt say these mean things that i'm always thinking, right? i know he'll be here sharp. sharp and ready and willing. i'm not ready. no bra. no underwear. never underwear. i'm not ready. wet hair. wet greasy hair. zit. i havent shaved my legs in weeks. i'm not a glorious sight. and i'm not ready for this afternoon. -amanda