i buried my face in my hands and curled up closer to the window. the bus was cold and dark and the thunder of 40 girls yelling/talking/laughing. i didnt want to digest the night, i just wanted to give up. after talking to ka-rin my eyes started to sputter and release liquid. for soem reason i got an emotional burst and my pathetic sobs were quickly washed out by the others in the atmosphere. i was alone in a crowd. i was safe. so i let it out. i let out frustrations and anger and pain and heartbreak. so i'm alright now. dont worry about it. i'm really alright. and it felt fucking good. -amanda