Subject to Humiliation

by blackvomit
i guess i like the pain. maybe the reason to be unhappy. hah. i'm fucked up. like really, my whole mental process, currently, is fucked up. who wants to be happy now-a-days? hah. oh shit. god damn. i am so happy. see these tears? they're fucking tears of joy. no, seriously. hah.
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As honest as i can, your thoughts sound true. moments pass and everyone i know seem like taht. its ok
I'm in the middle of nothingness wishing i could be back where i thought i didn't want to be. Home. With those people that really like me. That i really like.
br. it's worse that pain is the only thing receptive to everyone. it's our only practical source of pure means of communication. If you hate, you use it to show it.same with companionship, if you're willing to to befriend somone, you have to show them you'd do anything for them even as a result of pain.. what did you mean " nice diary" i think the plainness is boring.. at least you have a picture of yourself.
-stephanie-
dear parapara never said anything.. he must be sleeping again. umm if youre still on maybe you can help?? brr
been a while how is death and destruction treating you?
i need a hug or a talking to. I need your realistic point of views right now. right this second. right this millisecond.